I'll lend a child of mine. A poem for you Heather  / Sherri (SIL to Mark )
To All Parents :


"I'll lend you for a little time,
a child of Mine," He said.
"for you to love while he lives,
and mourn for when he's dead.

It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-one or three,
But will you, 'til I call him back
Take care of him for me?

He'll bring his charm to gladden you,
And should his stay be brief
You'll have his loving memories
As solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from Earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.

I've looked the whole world over
In my search, for teachers true.
And from throngs that crowd life's way,
I have selected you.

Now will you give him all your love
Nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call
To take him back again?

I'm sure, I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done;
For all the joys this child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.

We'll shelter him with tenderness;
We'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever-grateful stay.

But should the angels call for him
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
..........And try to understand.

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Mark Fowler The Worlds's Loss.  / Argia M. Caines (Someone who will REMEMBER YOU )
Dear Heather;

What a handsome young man.  The world will never know him. I wish you so much comfort and peace and hope one day these treasured memories will help amid the tears.  Mark will be remembered by me.
Take care and Be safe.
Argia Mother of my beautiful Raphael
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Mark is so loved!!!  / Cathy Ward
((((((((((((((Heather & Family)))))))))))))

Dear Heather,
I'm so sorry your Mark chose to leave this world so soon, your right, he did not know the devastation that would be left behind. Mark is a very handsome young man, and it shows how dearly he is loved and missed.
Sit out tonight on your patio, he is always near.
Take care.
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May the spring sun that brings new life warm your heart.  / Pam Coerber (Heather's Friend )
Heather,
My wish for you and Jesse and all the members of your family is that every new
bloom reminds you of Mark's smile.
That at least once a day, if only for a moment, you can smile back.
That you understand the job that you do keeps other mothers from experiencing the kind of pain that you have had to endure.
That you know that I love you and I think about you and your family every day.
That you know that I just want to put my arms atound you and tell you that you will get through this.
That your loving warm personality and you ability to deal with adversity wil be the glue that keeps you going.
That Jesse will somehow understand that his brother didn't mean to leave him...he just felt he had no choice.
That you continue to do whatever you have to do to heal.
That you know that Mark is resting in God's hands and being comforted and that all of the pain that sent him away...is gone.
That you know that he is now as radient as the little boy in the bath with bubbles on his chin, a gleam in his eye and a true pure smile on his face.
That you know that you have a friend that you can call day or night as many times as you need to.
That when you go to sleep tonight you will think happy thoughts and know that I am thinking of you.



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Blessings / Coni Snyder (none)

Dear Heather,
I don't know how this web site popped up on my screen but I think it is for a purpose somehow.  I had two brothers commit suicide within a month of each other.  Probably one of the lowest times in my life.  Having to be strong for my Mom and Grandmother took a lot out of me.  I dream of them to this day.  Their departures were 30 years ago but the pain does not go away, no matter what people tell you.  You find yourself asking so many questions and knowing there are no answers.  My best advise is to keep their memories alive forever.  Always remember the good times.  Always know they are watching over you.  One more thought before I go:  When you feel a soft warm breeze on your face, think of it as a kiss from them.  It helps to get you though.  God Bless you Always, Coni

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PRAYERS TO YOU  / Debbie Montgomery (FFOS member )

MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS GO OUT TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AT YOUR LOSS. I TOO HAVE LOST A FAMILY MEMBER TO THIS HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE. I LOST MY STEP-SON AT THE AGE OF 17 TO SUICIDE. HIS ANGEL DATE IS JUNE 30,2004. MAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU AND NEVER GIVE UP ON HIS LOVE FOR YOU.

                        SISTERS AND SERENITY

A LOVING GROUP OF SISTERS IN PRAYER
DEDICATED MOTHERS FROM EVERYWHERE
STRONG FAITH, LOVE, HOPE AND CARE
ARE PRECIOUS BONDS THAT WE SHARE

TRAGIC CIRCUMSTANCES MAKE US HURT AND CRY
WE ALL HAVE SUFFERED HAVING A CHILD DIE
OUR BABY MAY HAVE DIED DURING BIRTH
OR YEARS SHARING TIME ON EARTH

A PARENTS LOVE IS GIVEN PURE AND TRUE
IT IS HEARTBREAKING HERE WITHOUT YOU
OUR TIME TOGETHER WAS A PRECIOUS BLESSING
THAT PART OF OUR SOUL WILL ALWAYS BE MISSING

TENDER LOVING MEMORIES REWIND EVERYDAY
SEARCHING FOR PEACE AND COMFORT AS WE PRAY
LORD,MEND OUR BROKEN HEARTS FROM WITHIN... AND GRANT SOME SERENITY UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN



by Dianne Craddock

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For Mark's family.  / A. Friend
I said, God I hurt
And God said, I know

I said, I cry alot
And God said, That's why I gave you tears

I said, Life is so hard
And God said, That's why I gave you loved ones

I said, But my loved one died!!
And God said, So did mine!!

I said, It's such a great loss!!
And God said, I saw mine nailed to a cross!!

I said, But your loved one lives!!
And God said, So does yours!!

I said, Where is he now??
And God said, My Son is by my side and
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Markie / Scott Sukeforth (Jesse's Dad )

I knew Mark for over half of his life. I have had things on my mind since the funeral and didn’t really know how or where to express them. I thought that this might be the place.

I remember the first time I met him. He had just landed at the airport in Maine to spend the summer with his mom. The airport was hectic and he seemed overwhelmed. He was so young. Someone asked Mark what he had in his bag. His eyes lit up with such joy and excitement. He pulled out candy, toys, and plastic wings that he got from the airlines. He bubbled with information, explaining the adventure of traveling and the history of each trinket he had accumulated. I saw that joy and excitement that was inside him over the years when he talked, about his dog, Bingo, about Petri and his other birds, when he described the "village" in Ray’s basement, talking about mustangs cars. Those are some of memories I have, inquisitive, polite, and imaginative. His mind was moving all the time.

I have thought about Mark’s troubled teen years. What has come to me lately is that because of Mark’s troubles, it had an influence on bringing Heather, Jesse and Daniel to Kentucky. I think those years in Kentucky brought them closer together as a family.

I can not imagine the isolation, pain and anguish that sent Mark to do what he did. There was a time in my life when I wondered if life was worth living. I met people who told me that as long as there was a heart beat and a breath that there was also hope for a better life. I question if I ever gave this message to Mark, if I tried hard enough to tell him. I wonder if it would have made a difference.

Because of some things that happened between us, my last words to Mark could have been harsh. I am so grateful today that they were not. I just said hello, waited and he said hello back. I think we all have moments in our lives we would like to have to do again, this would be one of mine.

I do miss Mark and only wish that we had another chance.

I cried once when my Dad died. I think of Mark daily and have shed more tears than I would like to say. I do not know why this is so hard. It could be the loss of the little boy that I remember, it may be the loss of things that could have been. It may be the pain that people I care about are in.

I do hope that Markie has found peace.

Scott Sukeforth

4/20/2006

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Free to Be  / Pam C.
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Easter Blessing  / Pam Coerber (Heather's Friend )

Heather - Only God could understand the pain that Mark was in and he understood that he would experience this pain from the moment of his inception.  That is why He sent His own Son would experience mental, emotional, and physical pain that no human can know and by doing this he opened the path for Mark to follow him to His home.  
A place where Mark is at peace and is engulfed in love everyday.  A place that has a vantage point that allows him to watch over those that he loves and left behind.  Remember that he loves you still and wants you to be happy again, so as hard as it is you have to try to remeber the happy times.  Put those thoughts in the front of your mind and think of his smile often and remember that Mark and your Mom will be waiting for you with open arms when the time comes for you to follow the path that Jesus left for you.

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No Greater Loss  / Linda Stilson (POS Friend )
Mark,
I'm sure you didn't think about the greatest loss that a parent can suffer when you chose to die.  Your mother loved you dearly and misses you painfully.  You were a handsome young man with your whole life in front of you and I'm sure she had many dreams and hopes for you.  The memories she has of you will sustain her until she is with you again.  Your memorial site is a beautiful tribute to you and shared by many.  If you run into my son, Michael Joseph, up there make sure to tell him I miss and love him dearly and don't pull too many pranks together.
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For Jesse  / Pam Coerber (Heather's Friend )
Jesse,

I have never had the pleasure of meeting you, but I knew your brother Mark when he was very young.  I hadn't seen Mark in many years but I do remember the last time I saw him and he was smiling, he smiled a lot back then.  It is very important that you remeber how much Mark smiled and I can tell from looking at the pictures of the two of you together that he loved you very much.  I know that it is really hard for you sometimes right now, but when you smile remeber that you are making Mark smile too.
I am looking forward to meeting you someday real soon, please give your Mommy a big huge hug and a kiss from me.

Love and peace to you,
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Mark, Marvin's Angel Friend  / Marvin Hardin (Son's Angel Friend )
Mark It is my Honor to sign your guest book. You will always be LOVED!! and never forgotten!! Marvin Sr.Pop of Marvin Jr.(Marvo) Close

"Ask My Mum" A poem for you Heather  / Sherri Rash (SIL to Mark Fowler )
Ask my Mum how is she.

My Mum, she tells a lot of lies
She never did before
From now until the day she dies
She’ll tell a whole lot more

She used to tell the truth a lot
But now it doesn't matter.
I died and went to heaven.
Her life is all a-shatter.

Ask my Mum how is she
She'll say "Yes, I'm fine!"
She wants to say "Please help me.
I can't find that boy of mine!"

Ask my Mum how is she
She’ll say “I’m alright”
If that’s the truth, then tell me
Why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mum how is she
She seems to cope so well
She didn’t have a choice you see
Nor the strength to yell

You think you know the feeling
But this cannot be
For even though you loved me,
You didn't love as much as she

She will smile and tell you
"It's o.k.. God has a plan."
But she will turn away and cry
'Cause she can't understand.

Tell a joke and she will laught
But she is not o.k.
She wants to share the joke with me
But it will not be today

I watch from here in heaven
Her distress disturbs my peace
Will someone please take care of her
And thus take care of me.

"Some day you will feel better"
"Yes, I will" she lies.
She knows this will not happen
Until the day she dies.

"I was so lucky!
I had him all these years."
(They passed in a minute.
I shed so many tears)

Ask my Mum how is she
She'll say "Thank you. Good"
She cannot tell you how she feels
Oh, how I wish she could.

Ask my Mum how is she
"I'm fine. I'm well. I'm coping."
For God's sakes, Mum, just tell the truth
Just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all of her life
I loved her all of mine
But if you ask her how is she
She’ll lie and say she’s fine

I am here, in heaven
I cannot hug from here
If she lies to you, don’t listen
Hug her, hold her near

On the day we meet again
We’ll smile, and I’ll be bold
I’ll say “You’re lucky to get in here, Mum with all the lies you told

Written by Jo Burr, 3 months after losing her 15 year old son, Simon. Close

There is no greater loss or deeper unseen pain:  / Kandas(POS) Kori's Mom (regretfully none )
I am sorry for your precisous boy, I have seen an awesome, loving character, 
the world has no concept of this great loss, I am always around Heather
blessings to you dear mom of  Jesse,Mark,Daniel and all your family. 
there are no words strong enough or deep enough to share what my heart feels for all of you at this time. 
~~~~You may only be
~~one person to the world
~~~~~But you may also be 
~~~~the world to one person           love & light Kori;s mom Kandas Close

A life to short  / Kathy Black (visitor)
Heather,i am so sorry for the loss of your dear son Mark,you did a great job on his memorial,in some ways he reminds me of my son Nathan. N athan recieved his wings on his 21st birthday,Jan 31,2005.You and your family will be in my prayers.....T/C Kathy,Nate's mom forever Close

My thoughts are with you at this difficult time  / Marie Mitchem (passerby)
Hi, 
I was just on my uncles site and I came across your sons. My nine month old baby was on my lap. When I was looking at the slide show of pictures my baby got really excited. He kept putting his hands on the screen and saying dada baba...He was smililng and laughing. Usually when he is on my lap while I am on the computer he wants to type. Today he was different. You know how they say that babies can feel angels? I think my baby really felt and saw your son. I think your son was making him laugh. Just wanted to tell you that...

God Bless,
Marie

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I will keep you in my prayers!  / Beth Peters
As another fellow mom of two....who recently lost her mother to cancer and close military friend to sucide.  I can't even begin to imagine how you must feel to loose a child.  But I wanted to send my condolenses and let you know I will keep you in my prayers, and may God help you find understanding, peace and help you through thease troubled times.  From what I read he sounded like a great boy.  There are many things beyond our understanding, that we as humans are not meant to understand but to just keep the faith in God, trust in God, that there is a reason for everything.  What helps me is remembering that it is not Goodbye, you shall meet again.  God bless, takecare. Close

Mark..... / Diane Angel Mom- Katie Cassidy
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mark / Cheri Brooks From Ohio (a mom who stopped by )

mark im sending you a puppy to be with you they always say dogs are mens best friends ,so hope he will keep u company ...

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